Au revoir, merci!

Well, it's been almost two months since I've written anything here and so I've come to the decision that I won't be posting anymore. In the event that I feel like blogging some day down the road, it won't be on here but I will post a link here and you'll get the update if subscribe through a feed.

Anyway, that's it. Thank you to everyone that has read or commented in the past.
Take care
xo

C'est Fini.

So, it's over. I suppose a small part of me thought that thought my Dr. was wrong but he wasn't, and I was pregnant and now I am not. The whole experience was not what I was expecting (not that I knew what to expect) and while I know that everyone is different it was more painful than I thought it would be, very painful physically, extremely painful mentally.

I was doing alright this weekend, I kept myself busy but I just realized that I was never alone. We brought the dog for long walks, I baked and made a lasagne and we brought my grandfather out for brunch. Today, I'm not doing so well. The long commute to work gives me too much time to let my mind wander and sitting alone in my office I am unable to concentrate on anything other than I was pregnant and now I am not. The rain outside probably doesn't help matters much, it's depressing to look outside today.

Anyway, enough of the pity party......
The last couple of weeks have been baaaaaaad
food wise and while I don't regret eating comfort foods, (my drugs of choice were mac and cheese and mass quantities of gummy worms, the really fresh ones from Bulk Barn) it's time to stop. I'm scared to look at the scale and worse than the scale is that I feel mushy. I quit kickboxing when I found out I was pregnant and now I'm not as toned as I once was and I feel gross. I've kept up walking with the dog for at least 45 minutes a day but I need to add some cardio so tonight I'm dusting off my Shred DVD. It won't be pretty but I'm going to do it.

There is no title to this post because I can't think of the words to write.
On Aug 30th I wrote a post that I was going to share with everyone later but I've just deleted it.
In this post I wrote that the day before I had taken a positive pregnancy test. Actually, I did 4 just to confirm, I had saved them but I've just thrown them out. I can't delete the pictures that I've taken of the tests, I'm keeping them as a reminder that I wasn't dreaming, that a joke was not played on us. As you can probably guess by now, I am no longer pregnant. Well I suppose I still am as I have not yet miscarried, I've had what's called a missed miscarriage. My doctor advised me to wait it out and to see if I would miscarry naturally, if not I will have to induce the miscarriage and I will go again this week to have blood taken to make sure that my hormone levels are indeed dropping....so now I wait, and cry and I grieve and I want this to be over.

I suppose the silver lining in all of this is that we are able to get pregnant on our own when we were told that it would be a miracle if we did. I've cancelled our in-vitro appointment as we can't bring ourselves to pay for something that we can apparently do, not to mention, I'm terrified that it wouldn't work and we would still be paying long after. So, right now I'm hoping that miracles do indeed happen twice and that it doesn't take us another two and half years. I wasn't going to post about this at all but I figured that it might give some people out there a little bit of hope even though ours was not a happy ending.

Hopefully I'll post again soon, but please forgive me if I don't right away, I just need some time.

Farmer's Market

Marc-Andre is away on business for a few days and even though I'm still feeling quite awful (I can't shake this cold!!) I thought it would do me some good to get out of the house so I met my friend at the farmer's market this morning. I left with apples, pears, peaches, dahlias and the best baguette I've ever had, roasted garlic and rosemary. It's to die for, on my way home I bought some brie to eat it with. I'm going to have to go back with M-A because I'm not sure there will be any left for him...lol.

Afterwards I came home to get the dog and we met my parents and their dog for a hike and a swim (the dogs, not us) and since I had nobody to come home to Riley and I invited ourselves over for dinner ;)

iPhone 365

I'm sick and it sucks. Sore throat, stuffy nose....bleh. So that's the reason for a boring week here.
We have a few things going on this weekend so I'll do another post or two soon providing I feel better and make it out of the house. In the meantime, I'll leave you will a photo taken with my iPhone. I've decided to do an iPhone 365 challenge on Flickr. I figured why not since I always have my phone on me. I'll add some here once and a while but you can also check out a new pic every day by clicking on my Flickr account on the right.

This is one of the last tomatoes in our garden.

That's it for now, have a great weekend!

Camping :)

We had an amazing time camping this weekend! There's nothing like spending lots of time outdoors, I love it. The weather was really great, we totally lucked out. The nights and mornings were a little on the chilly side, but that's OK, I have a good sleeping bag. We read, sat by the fire, took long walks and hikes and we brought Riley to the dog beach, he loved that!!

I didn't take that many pictures but here are a few for you.Remember the cupcakes I made to bring with us? Well on the way there Marc-Andre braked really fast and they went flying! It didn't affect the taste though, they were still really good ;)
I had today off :) I met my friend for a great lunch and then on the way home I stopped off at one of my favorite stores and picked up some Halloween stuff!I got a sign to put in our bookshelf, some hand towels for the powder room and because I love globes, I got a skull globe. When you shake it, bats float around. I almost got M-A a Halloween coffee mug, but I wasn't sure if he'd like it, he's picky about his coffee mugs but I think I will go back and pick it up.

Hope everyone had a great weekend!!

Long weekend!!

I had a lovely relaxing day and it certainly helped that the weather today in Ottawa was stunning! It was a little hot for fall but still, nicer than most of our summer.

I started out my day off with an 8am dentist appointment. I had to go clear across the city and I figured that I needed to give myself lots of time so I left very early, I was expecting to get stuck in traffic. Well...it seems that half the city took today off and I got there 50 minutes early! With nothing to do I headed over to Wal-Mart, it was the only thing open. I'm not a huge fan of that place but It's not too bad that early in the morning without the crowds. Have I ever mentioned that I used to work there? Well I did, in the photolab. That was actually a fun job to have back in the day when I had no responsibilities. You can't imagine the pictures I've seen! It still blows my mind that people would send in their naked pictures. Lots of laughs were had let me tell ya! Hahahah!!

When I got home I frosted my cupcakes, packed for camping and cleaned the house a little. Afterwards, the cat, dog and I took a nap. Well the cat is always sleeping but Riley was also tired. He was a good puppy today, maybe it's because I told him that if he doesn't behave he's not coming camping ;)

Tonight I went out for dinner with my best friend, girl's night was just what I needed. Well, that's it for now, I'll be back on Monday with some pictures of our camping trip. Have a great long weekend, everyone!

I was hoping for a quiet night...

I was planing on having a quiet night tonight. M-A was playing softball and I was going to read a little, bake some cupcakes and bring the dog for a walk.I got the cupcakes made. Now they're in the freezer waiting to be frosted on Friday. These are gluten free and they're to bring camping. My sister in-law has celiac so we try to make foods that she can eat.Afterwards I did a little gardening. We have soooo many tomatoes! We've been giving lots away because we have too many for the two of us. Next year we won't plant so many plants.

I was all ready to go for a walk when I realized that both of Riley's leashes were in the truck and Marc-Andre took the truck to his game.... So instead I spent the next two hours running around after Riley who decided that tonight was the night he was going to drive the cat and I nuts. He was so restless! Don't let the picture above fool you...He's not always this quiet, after all, he's only three and a half months old and still a baby. Awwww. Right now M-A is walking him and I'm hoping he comes back a little calmer ;)

That's it for today. I have one more day of work because I took Friday off!! Yay!!

Bake It Pretty!

I love getting mail and today something special was in my mailbox! For my birthday in July Sarah sent me an online gift certificate for Bake It Pretty!! There were so many choices, this is what I got. The package couldn't have come sooner, I was planning on making cupcakes this week to bring with us camping :) Thanks again, Sarah!! I'm sure this won't be the last time I order from here, the service was great.

La fin de semaine.

I'm glad that tomorrow is Monday, only because the next two weeks are short ones. It's the long weekend and I've taken this Friday and next Friday off! Yay! We're also going camping from Sat-Mon and I'm really looking forward to it, there will be lots of pictures I'm sure. I've sort of been ignoring my camera in favor of the one on my iPhone and I plan of fixing that.

Last night we celebrated my parents 40th anniversary!! 40 years! How amazing is that? We had dinner at my sister's house and her boyfriend used to be a chef, the food was AMAZING! I don't know how she stays so tiny, living with him, I would weight a ton by now for sure.

Today we brought Riley for a swim at my in-law's house. There is a pond in their front yard so we ran around with him and tossed sticks in the water for him. He wasn't really in the mood though and just sort of splashed around..lol he was cute!

Well that's it for tonight, I'm going to take it easy and work on a new design for this site while I watch Degrassi goes Hollywood or whatever it's called. It's so not as good as the original show. I remember the first time I saw the actual Degrassi Street in Toronto, I thought it was soo cool. Hahaha!